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[The End] Hi, 2017. Thank you for all the memories you gave. They are wonderful yet painful at the same time. I had no day without tears, but it’s really okay for me. I am grateful that I was blessed with strength to through it all. I am grateful that I was not ended up insane. I am grateful that I stand still. I through a lot of ups and down, eventhough I don’t really have any ups on my 2017. This year, I learnt so much about life, about my self and who I really am. This year such a blessing year, yet the worst, so far. I don’t want any worse years ahead. I can’t even express how I really hate this year, What I am struggling for. Actually I didn’t know and would never know about it. I, the one who used to be a very optimistic girl, turned to be the most pessimistic person. I, the one who not used to tears, turned to be the girl who cried every single night. I, the one who used to think that everything is possible and there are so much way to get it, turned to be the one that b...

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